These anxieties

These anxieties! I feel them, I breathe into them 
In the depths of my belly - gently and deeply.
I cradle my weakness, my confusion 
The gnawing, seemingly infinite duality of possibilities and contradictions. 

I surrender the tiring effort 
To find the solution, to know
To understand. 

I surrender my unknowing to God. 
To reveal the truth and shed the layers 
Of confusion and separation.

To do all the divine orchestration I couldn't come close
to figuring out

I am intimate with this pain and
I trust God.